wish i cld go to work right away and install my hard-earned desktop within a month.

feel so bad for using maggies.

most of all.. feel rly restricted.

tml is the vintage thingy. dun rly know what to wear..

am still so amazed by A.N.Jell and the pretty people. wish can see more of them..

wonder how to get a pretty poster. lol. :))

sooooo out of money... howsabout gpl's bdae... D:

at most scringe in bintan.

wld hate their words i foresee over there.. full of bite.

even my phone is not working.

still quite resentful abt the cash gambled away in genting. but itherwise i wouldnt enjoy freedom much anyways.. john cnt understand that.

wna faster try my luck at craft&tech MF, get rejected, and then try out everything else.. cnt get past first step.. CV not done yet. MEH.

im so bored im so bored. got no money got no moneyyyy. wanna see my vivi, yuuu, muji, sher, ka, box, mouse, tehh, xl and chiat. wanna eat nice foods, wanna go kboxx, wanna buy stuff. but WAIT. FIRST PAY TO INSTALL A FREAKING DIAN NAO. whichi am nt even close to yet.

i am so bummed.

boobs spilling all ovr my prompics. LOL. explicit much. not used to it./ being this exposed, even thought i didn rly expose anything.. alritey.. get dinner.

caberkat has been empty for awhile.. and its bothering me. )):
i cant help it coz my com crashed.. this' mag's.

jang guen suk has amazing eyes. Grade 1.
and collarbones. Grade 1+++
and his voice is... grade 1*****

lets just say..
if he cuts an album just narrating verses from a korean dictionary,
I WOULD BUY IT FOR TWICE THE PRICE.
it is... sexy. hahahah.
he doesnt sing particularly particularly well,
but i like his voice the best. even better than hongki's.

how good it would be if park shin hye was really a boy and hwang tae kyung was real. hahahaha. they are so good there. :)))

tmr's prom and i dunno what hair/ makeup/ accessories am gonna wear. juz.. play by ear.

i have 4 characters now.
yui
kane
kai
keia.

kane resembles felten from /hana to akuma/. but is subtle as vampire knight's lead.

yui.. i wrote abt yui alr. haha. awkward at times, but his charm is amazing.

kai is a deep and philosophical boy with short black hair.

keia is a female. taciturn and independent.

i have 4 bunnies now.
yellow
pink
red
blue

i took a picture and they are now A.N JELL. HAHHAHA. too bad i dont have the exact colours as the samsung phone endorsemt thingy. hahaha.

Promise by A.N.JELL. is sooo cool! its my fave song now! :))


약속 - 에이엔젤(A.N.JELL)

CYA IN GRAND HYATT! :D (happy listening to A.N.JELL~)

put youself in her shoes, put yourself in her shoes!
please always remember the weight of this advice.. the movie of once which she'd lent me view, comprehend the action, no?

her great love is always. her great love is always greater than i can ever imagine. what hurtful things it enables her soul to commit and hold, it is only her great love that allows it so. her great love is king.

you only need three steps, i told myself:

1. find the problem
2. apologize
3. make up for it.

three steps to fix a problem. the impossible-is-possible chanel. what i can achieve in the day is nothing to what i am able to do in a night, if i am bade to forgo sleep. the impossible within a night, yet what is this,- one year? one year for one flaw.

the key is to comprehend. i am led by intuition to speak today, to junrong. and i am led to understand. i thank my being led. if letting herself be out of reach of me is protection, protecting me is love, and she loves me that much to be able to sustain so, her great love is king. i needed a long walk to cool myself from the sudden revelation of information and what they imply.

i am always humbled by her being. today i realise i am the clean slate. today i realise what a child i am, how impulsive i've been acting. my title bestowed on her makes her responsible for my well-being, and pray i never forget again: i am the child. she is always thinking about us. she i always thinking for us. she is always the adult. always the responsible one. i am too blessed to know of her plights and downfalls that make her the goddess she is. why is she so strong..

i shall not run away on my birthday, which i admit, i had contemplated earlier today.. i had wanted to leave the country and begin a new life elsewhere. lol. instead, i think i shall need to make myself stronger. i need to be stronger than yesterday. i need to change my ideas and concepts of "strength". my favourite animals were the armadillo and the turtle. i need to change that idea, because i would hurt the people who love me even more even if i do survive being beaten instead of fighting back. i need to fight back. i think shall need to take on protective martial arts. been thinking. should i call yiwen or get myself on a course..?

i think this has helped me understand our positions. i think it is possible to maintain a foreign working relationship if i do get myself accepted to teach relief. it is possible.. shall be typing up my CV next, and borrow some art books, since am at the library. i am so thankful for junrong giving me insight into her position. i need to stand up again. i shall need to.

we love each other.
and i shall need to become stronger to match up to that,
great
great love.

i love you.

and you must never forget that.

angel,

and what it stands for.

we will always be able to go on.

the hardest part is over,

-we have parted

in body.

and we will now be able to go on,

forever.

please never do forget,
how much i love you,
and how you will be able to go on,
no matter what.
please never forget.


we will always be waiting for each other at the End
,angel.

hello~

Yui is Yui Karaita, a Boy Shoyru. I'm Red! Yui is 15 years old. I like matcha green tea , and Yui has an increeeedibly sweet tooth! Yui loves bunnies. Sometimes, Owner-chan lets Yui go out to play. But Yui-chan prefers to take long walks around the town, breathing the fresh dewy scent in the midnight breeze. Yui hopes to be become a famous Battledome warrior in the future. However, Yui can't fight very well yet... Yui loves Owner-chan and Owner-chan loves Yui! Someday, Yui is going to meet his Faerie Queen... :) Yui cant wait, :). meanwhile, let's play!

♥♥♥,
Yui

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my mangafox is DOWN! D: i wanna read mangaaaa He's dedicated to roses comes out today~ wanna know what happend to jang shinah and choi ida. :(((

went on onemanga.. but its not as updated.. so i just revisited some older chapters..
Hana to Akuma is so preeetty and heartwarming. wish they hurry post more. :)) my next character will be stolenfrom Hana to Akuma, Vivi-sama!! O how prettyyy. love his demeanour.

howsabout my yui-chan! :))) shall include a writeup tml. am going to bed today! :))

I went to neopets. WELL I NEED A REWARD FOR COMPLETING GP RIIITTTTE~ ok no.. just procrastinating. fallible... :))

i did religion again.. i guess it was passable...

felt quite good today.
"reward" for myself came in the form of giving a jay chou concert to an imaginary stdium of audience, jumping on bed and and using an empty kitchen roll as a mike.

hahaha.

when i went out to restock green tea at 9pm, i remember thinking that it didnt feel like i was having major exams. mainly because i was plugged in to jay chou on the ipod and trying to resist not singing aloud in the dark carpark. (was always sort of uber-wary of dark carparks, but jay chou makes me feel like i can do Anything. :) hooray for King- JAY Chou~ you know.. e.g, plug into 'shuang jie gun' and beat the crap out of any guy with evil intentions. hootZ-ka-le-lao-sai sial. LOL. Jay is my King. this bracket is uber long..) yea, and maybe it didnt feel like major exams because i just had Maths to day. and honestly, it was much more do-able than expected. not saying that it's easy.. it was TEDIOUS. but do-able. :) maybe it would feel more like exam period tomorrow..

am wondering why the days just pass soooo slowly.

my finger joints are starting to hurt.. think i can bear out for a couple years more of intensive writing before they really turn into something unusable. today was horrible during math. my head was hurting from jaw-up so i put on the retainer. i soo should put on theretainer 24/7. its pain-free. but of course, i cant eat/ drink/ speak properly. well anyways, my fingers hurt. maybe because of the flucuating temperatures. the teacher was trying to be kind and moderate the period of which we are exposed to aircon... but that was what i brought TWO jackets for.. well whatevers. was gripping too tightly too.

am so irritated that we had to sketch so many graphs with out graph paper. i was so pissed i slapped my ruler on the papers each time. hmpf. GRAPH paper is for GRAPH what. why cannot use. anyway i hate drawing graphs. so time consuming.

anyway, how to take out the ln from the ln(x) when u have another x on the other side! that was qn that got me manz.. and i had to put on my retainer. lol.

in the long loooong time that the invilgilators take to collect scripts,i just keep admiring my essays and pretty handwriting. lol. well, it is pretty. and there's not much else to do... i like pretty things. i think i learnt well, no? :)

shall try to find out how to apply to mayflower. and shall then try to apply to craft and tech dept. and maybe teach art. or.. babysit.. or something... when they finally shall see me coming, wouldnt it be nice (if the world were chocolate).. :)

such in the things i read her interact. conversations.
and i can hear her voice...
the quiver in her throat at the end of a tired sentence,
her voice in soft. and clear.
and a transition between words, smoother than you can pick out.

her voice,
and it has been more than a year..
no, less. the day she said she didnt want to see it/me.
she doesnt speak when i am sround. a negation of an entire sense.
like i do, similarly.
i dont touch, see.
oh dont get me wrong, we do talk, but not to each other. haha.
am reminded of our 4-way banter on speach day.
i greeted the wind in place of ka, and ka greeted Her in my place.
was great fun.

anyways,
i had wanted to say.

i hear her voice. tonight,
by the crickets of urban midnight,
the whirring of the wall fan i hate to have directly at me,
my weariness.
and perhaps i yearn.
perhaps i still do. that irritating notion.
even under my exaggerated front.

but i darent change the wallpaper on my phone. i darent.
tonight. i hear her voice to night.

EHH! but it really hurts!! DD: from the left hip joint down.. :((( bunnie heal it for mee. :((

Ugh.. i mis the days when i didnt have to fret over whether my hip joint is in the right place or not. :SSS i hate being OLD and DECREPIT and DECAYING like some sickly OLD thing! i hate it, i hate it, i hate it!! can you just skip to the part where i actual die~ :(( DYING is so painful.... :(( i cant evensit properlyyyy. NOR EAT GUMMY BEARS!!! itzz okayyyyy i gotza red jelllo done tomorrow morning... :( bunn-chan will love me... :( and the next bunny is called Ken-chan. and the ghostie i've been drawing, kui-chan. maybe i'll buy a sheep and call it bob-chan. :((( NY lit has such a profound impact on us in the bob-era, no? :')

MUMMIEEEEE I DON WANNA DYING~ ( am so ashamed of this horrid grammar, but its truuuueeee)

GRADE 1









joe cheng is pretty and talented in acting and modelling. he is heavy but tall, see. hard to find nicenice pics because he tends to be photogrphed with ariel lin (Idontlikeher) and old pics are quite ugly.. i think google took down all the album photos alr.. WELL, I HAVE THE PICTUREBOOK ANYWAY~. :))






check out the pretty kissy face!




Danson Tang is Pretty!!!!!! PRETTY!!! i cannot say anymore abt DT, but that is enough~! Pretty~ PRETTYYYYY!! :D:D:D:D









jerry yan is a buffie. like his voice, it is very unique, sexy. like immediately can recognise on radio. he was signed on Jay chou's company by JAY CHOU YOU KNOWW! They rock plss~ love his ORAL B TEETH! jerry yan should only have this pretty hair. hee.. it is soooo easy to find nice pics of him! he looks good in every angle and every piece of expensive clothing as always,- like in meteor garden~.





this pic looks like jay chou! :)))



ruan jingtian mah. still need to explain meh. not that hard to find nice pix, but they are sort of playboy(bunny) [R21], see. anyway, those were hot. wanted a pic to show his longlonglong neverending legsss but cld rly.. google is quite lousy. but im lazy.. ethan ruan






SS501 leader! Kim Hyun Joong! he's not THAT EXTREMELY Pretty, just Very Pretty. so his singing boosted his marks. :)) love his voice!! check out his solo RIZE UP. omgg~










this is the little-bunnie-boy air hottie! Kim Jeong hoon (John-hoon) was 2nd lead in GOONG. looklook at the Bah-Geh! like little boy horrrr~ if i had a son this pretty~.... haiz











EHEH!! this is korean Shuai-qi! looks great in a goatee and plastic specs, v neck sweaters, scarves and turtlenecks hair is relatively short but is still pretty!! his acting rocks pls. Lee Dong Wook acted in My Girl. and many other K-dramas :)))


a'ite, thats grade 1 for u~ grade 2 MIGHT come up. and 1.5 too. :)) took 2 hrs to search for the many many pix. mainly because mangafox was under maintenance.. :( i skipped derek lee today. (grade 3 btw) hahaha. :)) joel loo will be grade 2 for his tennis, not the tan though. and the chem teacher whom i've been askingard for his name but to no avail. he could probably cut a grade 2 if i knew him better. but since i dont know anything about him, he's a 2.5. am imagining what a couple of professional photographers (and stylists) can do. :)

i would put jay chou in grade 1 for his beautiful artsy photos in November's Chopin. but mainly because of the the pictures, not him. hahahaha. :))

okay, i've sorted out 4 and a half categories for HOT GUYS on (idol)TV.

Grade 1

Joe Cheng
Danson Tang
Jerry Yan
Ethan Ruan
Hyun Joong
Kim John-hoon (Goong, Prince Yul)
Lee Dong Wook (My Girl, Seol Gong-chan)

This category can also be called, "iwanthiminmybed" or "THISSHOULDBEMYBOYFRIEND!". People in this category are exceptionally talented and extremely beautiful. otherwise, their extreme extremeeeee prettiness makes up for the lack of whatever else. :))) the taiwanese are in order, korean at random order.


THE LIMINAL HALF - Grade 1.5

DYLAN
Takuya Kimura

ahaha. these two fringe on 1 and 2. mainly because they're really really pretty, but not very talented (DYLAN) or most times is over-tanned (TK) LOLLL.


Grade 2

Mike He
Jay Chou
Lee Wei
Aaron Yan
Vic Chou Zaizai
Show Luo Xiao Zhu
Zhang Dong Liang
Park Jungmin
Toro
Yan Xing Shu
Joo Jihoon (Crown prince, Goong)

this group is the [extremely talented but avg looks], [above avg looks], [pretty no brain] and the [sort of talented, sort of pretty, not THAT normal...]. this is the "wishtheyarecourtingme-butiwillnotacceptthemoverGrade1" group. hahaha.


Grade 3

Kyu Jong
Young Saeng
JJ lin
The didi in Devil beside you
Vaness Wu
Wilber Pan
Kingone (Yuanyi)

These are... the average good-looker that you can find on the streets.. boring..


HAHAHHA - LOSERSSS!

Calvin whatshisnamefromfahrenheit
Wuzun
Jiro Wang Monkey
Hyung Joon
MING DAO
Ken Chu
5566
Rain
Jam Hsiao
Yang zhongwei

these are UGLY people! and some are annoying, see. and some are ugly people pretending they rock~. i shall ignore talent because of how annoying they are!! heehee.


i wanna put up pix of GRADE1s!! but blogger is so mafan sial.. OoooOOO my girly girly palepale danson tang~ like a skinny drugger! pretty pretty!


mm. maybe next i shall post a female idolthigny. but it'd be abit more chappalang bah.. coz many dramas reuse the same female. and there are always more male leads than female. taiwan like to use angmoh looking gals as their 2nd lead.. :/

today i was rly rly tired. and so i declared that i would not attend anything. but youknowhut, i had my energizer bunnny pounced on me via sms at 2.30pm and am up and RUNNING again! literally running. hahaha. did my agnesoh well enough. waited an hour or so for bunny-Wind. AND I RAN! :D:D:D:D omg.. you know i how long nv see this bunnyyyyy!!! okay. now.. how to get through tomorrow.. :((

亲爱的天使，

我好累。 最近。。。 也不是说很忙， 但心灵上却会感到特别地累。 能听到周杰伦最新歌曲也可能就是这星期的焦点吧。 好想躲避世界的混乱， 回到你身边。也许，只有在你面前我才能够真诚地开心， 发自内心地笑。 有你在身边那舒畅地感觉， 我后悔没好好珍惜。 最近特别的想你， 最近特别的低落。 最近。。 特别的

，累。